Thursday, 31 March 2016

updated life in a nutshell

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Okay.. I don't even think I should apologize for being MIA anymore but I've been really really EXTREMELY busy. I have a list of things in mind to blog about so let's start writing before I forget them haha.

College. It's been about 3 months since I started college and man, I hate to say this but... I'm really enjoying it haha. It's so different from school. Aside from the obvious fact that we don't have to wear uniforms anymore *woohoo*, academic wise- it's so different. You can miss class as you like because no one is going to reprimand you. You're not obligated to do assignments because your lecturer can't always be worrying about you since he/she has like hundreds other students to worry about. If you don't pay attention in class, it's your own prerogative because you're the one who's not going to do well in your exams in a college that you probably paid a heck lot of money for. Basically, you're an adult and everyone around you will treat you like an adult. You're responsible for your own actions because no one is going to write your name down to send to the discipline teacher if you do something wrong. Aside from the whole being a semi-adult thing, you actually get to do something you enjoy. I can't speak for anyone but when I enrolled in college, I picked subjects I personally felt like I could handle and juggle along with my extra curricular stuff. Obviously, I would've been a model daughter if I went for medicine to make my mother happy seeing me be a doctor but.. ultimately, if I hate the subject - I'm the one suffering. I feel like a majority of people who leave school and go to college immediately, never really have a chance to stop and think about what they really want. They just go along with whatever their parents might force or tell them to do. In all honesty, I think I'm having a good time at college because I had a year to do absolutely nothing and really think about what I want to do in my life. So, for those of you who are still in high school or even in college doing something you hate, I hope this little piece of advice helps.

Oh yeah, for those of you wondering what I'm doing in college, I'm doing Cambridge A-Levels and I'm taking 3 subjects (which is the minimum number of subjects you have to take and 4 is the maximum number of subjects you can take ). My three subjects are Psychology, Law and Literature in English.

Social Life/Online Life. Well.... If spending majority of the time with my husband is considered having a social life then, yes, my social life is amazing bahaha. In all seriousness, my social life is almost zilch now. I try to catch up with some close friends from time to time but maaaan, it's hard! And having a marriage, family time, studying and alone time to juggle all at the same time, not exactly the easiest thing to manage haha. Online life, I'm actually struggling half of the time to even upload a photo on Instagram. Yeap, it's that bad. I guess, I'm still just adjusting to juggling everything in my personal life + college life. Buuuut! I promise to make more of an effort to update you guys here hehe.

Marriage. There are times it's really challenging, yes but.. I know by heart it is still by far, the best decision I've ever made in my life. Life with Asyraf has been almost unbelievable. When the times are good, it's unbelievably good and well.. when the times are bad, it's also unbelievably bad haha. But then again, no marriage is ever a constant bed of roses. I'm just very lucky to be able to do it with someone who is my voice of reason most of the time. Someone who is my bestfriend, my confidant, my teacher and everything else but most importantly, a partner who is committed to me as I am to him. I'm very happy and I think it's pretty clear why :) My love, when you read this, thank you for everything that you do for me.. for us. If I don't say it enough, I'm sorry. I guess there's just too many great things going on in our lives, I always forget to stop and show you more gratitude. I hope I make you at least half as happy as you make me. I LOVE YOU! <3

Well... for now that's all I have. Hopefully, I won't take this long for the next update haha. Per usual, thanks for taking your time to read xx

This is from one of those days I was feeling myself :p