Tuesday, 15 April 2014

first time for everything

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Crazy, huh ?! Never has it ever crossed my mind that there would ever be a write up on me, especially in the newspaper ! But, I was proven that nothing is impossible. Alhamdulillah, the one thing that has always been a big part of me has become something that is noticed by society. I don't know if you'll believe me when I say, it's not about the fame. Really. My first ever thought when I signed up for a blog was, "Someday, I'm going to be big enough to make a difference." MasyaAllah, all your endless supports, positive (and negative) comments, inspiring emails and so much more, made it possible to put me where I am today. Made me even happier to know that some of my blog readers aren't even Muslim ! So, to my loyal readers, thank you. May Allah SWT bless you in ways that I'm not able to. 

P/S ; Thank you, Arina Azlan for making it possible xx

Monday, 7 April 2014

little thing called love

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

I wrote a little something on Tumblr recently and when I posted it on Twitter, BAM ! Too many good response, masyaAllah. Soooo, I decided to put it up on the one place that would always have a special place in my heart hehe.

My boyfriend (soon to be husband, hopefully) and I are 9 years apart. When we met, I was 16 and he was 25. People are always asking me, "Why are you dating a guy so much older than you ?". Today, I finally thought about what my answer is. Older boys are much more matured and experienced. Yes, such a simple and cliché answer but it's true ! I have finally found a guy who knows that loving a girl isn't just about her looks or the size of her body. It's about falling in love with her personality and literally who she is. My boyfriend isn't able to touch me due to our religion. In Islam, we were taught to never touch opposite genders unless you are married or family. So, when he told me he wanted to marry me, I knew that it was out of pure love and not lust. Marriage, such a funny thing to say because I'm still very very young. Knowing a guy who has had experiences in his past relationships that lasted years but didn't work out, wanted to marry me, it really is something. He has gone out and seen the world and the type of girls out there. He could've chose a girl his age or two years younger to marry but he chose me. He chose the girl who he had to wait to finish school for, the schoolgirl who had built walls higher than ever that he had to break through before really getting to know. There were so many days that he had to deal with the immature 16-year-old I can be but he stayed throughout. Not once have I ever even seen a sign of giving up. Of course, he isn't the guy that romantically sweeps me off my feet all the time but hey, reality is, life isn't a movie. I've found a guy who truly understands what real commitment will be like. It will sometimes be sacrificing his late night outs with his boys because he needs to put the kids to bed, it will be about letting her win the argument although you are right or sometimes, it will simply be about missing a football match because she needs some sleep while you rock your newborn baby to bed. I finally met a guy who I know if I decided to spend the rest of my life with, despite the wrinkles that will appear, the body shape that will change, the teeth that will fall out, he would still love me for me. Commitment isn't a bed of roses, there will be sacrifices but you get to choose who you make those sacrifices for. So, make good choices. 

Tuesday, 1 April 2014

spending in the way of Allah SWT

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Happy April Fools ! Before anybody starts pointing that out, I'm sorry. I was just joking haha. Well, another month has already passed. Maaan, why is time so short nowadays ! Ok I take that back, no complaining. Thank you, Allah for being so generous and giving us 24 hours a day. I really appreciate it. 

Sorry I've been MIA, you guys. This sem break I had so much going on, I totally forgot to blog ! By so much going on, that includes studying ok ! Anyways, as most of you know, I have been bitten by the baking bug. Yup... I think I baked almost everyday last week. Since everyone is always finishing my muffins and cakes, I'm going to assume it's delicious. So, I was out at the supermarket earlier today. While waiting in line to pay for my things, an old couple in front of me were paying for their stuff. I accidentally overheard their conversation with the cashier telling her that RM36 was way too expensive for a couple of brooms and a pail. I was thinking, "Expensive...? I usually spent over RM100 for a blouse or two !". Then, it hit me.... 

To a lot of people, the amount of money spent even on the things they need are sometimes too much but to me, the amount of money spent on the things I want (not need) is never enough ! I started feeling so bad towards the flying money that had been spent on my favourite Chanel bags, Chanel flats, my Balenciaga.... :( So, I am now going to do more with the money than just spend them on my materialistic needs wants. Chaaarity ! I always feel like a weight of burden had been lifted off my shoulders everytime I do something good and my favourite has always been charity. Anybody wants to do some charity with me ? :D

"So fear Allah as much as you are able and listen and obey and spend [in the way of Allah]; it is better for yourselves. And whoever is protected from the stinginess of his soul - it is those who will be successful" (Quran 64:16)