Thursday, 30 October 2014

close to freedom

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 

Aaaaah, how much I miss blogging ! I've been so stressed out lately because I'm so scared and anxious of what's to come that I totally forgot I release stress best when I write. Today is my last day of high school.. Ever. I can't believe it's been 5 crazy years, it's so overwhelming to think about. Since I will be sitting for SPM in a couple of days, there are some things I'd like to say. 

First and far most, forgive me if I have ever said or done anything to hurt any of you whether intentionally or not. I am so sorry if there are times I don't reply to your comments, or when I do reply, I say the wrong things. The people that read my blog are the reason I try my level best to help people be better in one way or another. Although, you guys actually have no idea how much you guys make me a better person. Thank you so much for the support you've given me. I am just 17 and there are a lot of things that I still have to learn so, I hope you guys stay throughout the journey. To all the 97s that are sitting for SPM this Monday, I pray from the bottom of my heart that Allah will help you and be with you throughout it all. I hope He grants you nothing less than straight As to make your parents proud, Allahumma Aamiin. InsyaaAllah all those nights you stayed up studying will pay off. I hope you keep me in your prayers as I will, insyaaAllah keep you in mine. 

Wednesday, 24 September 2014

being grateful

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

It's been awhile, hasn't it ? I have been sick and busy and the holidays were around so, it meant more family time and less social network for me. Also, yes.... I'm going through that no mojo phase again where I have no idea what to blog about. SPM is so close, it's so scary. That is also why I haven't been on my blog, for awhile. Duty calls, sigh. Good news, I have just the perfect thing I want to write about today. 

Being Grateful

Couple of days ago, I was bowing down on the prayer mat performing my Asar prayer when I suddenly felt so content. Content with everything I had, content with my perfect physical features, content with having a lovely family, content with being able to wake up every morning and be grateful I'm a Muslim. Just content. I didn't know what it was I was feeling at that time but it felt, right and good. It was such an overwhelming feeling that I can't even remember the last time I felt that way. I got up from my position and gave my salam. At that particular moment, I quietly thanked God for everything and asked for forgiveness for the times I forgot to be grateful. I felt so sad how I never realized how much of a blessing it was being able to wake up every morning and breathe the morning air. I tried to imagine waking up not being Muslim but I couldn't... Then, I realized it was because I didn't want to. I didn't want to wake up and not be a Muslim because being Muslim is the greatest part about me. I'm not the best Muslim but I try. I try and try to be better everyday. I sin but I'm not a devil, I do good but I'm definitely no angel. If I wasn't a Muslim, I probably would never look into Islam and I would never know how beautiful this religion really is. No matter how much I stray away and I forget Allah, everyday He tries to remind me and pull me back. I don't always pray on time, I don't run away from sinning, I (Astaghfirullah, may Allah keep us away from this) sometimes talk bad about people, I sometimes forget to read the Quran, I'm not always as patient as I am on my good days, I (may Allah forgive me) sometimes raise my voice to my parents when I'm angry, I sin everyday, it's only a matter of whether I notice them or not. But no matter how many times I sin, He promises to forgive us every time we repent. MasyaaAllah, how forgiving He is when He doesn't owe us anything at all but He still waits for us to repent when we, who owe Him everything always forget to repent and be grateful. May Allah always open our hearts to repent and be grateful for all that we have. 

Tuesday, 19 August 2014

back to basics

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh ! 

Aaah, it feels so good to type in the familiar box again. Noticed the exclamation mark next to my salam ? Yup, excitement right there. Trails just ended and boy, am I glad it's over ! I missed my blog sooo much but I had to restrain myself so I don't end up ranting here instead of digging my face in my books haha. If any of you follow me on Twitter, for the next 3 months if you see me replying to people and retweeting stuff for too long by all means, tweet me and tell me to shove my face back in my books. Thanks haha. 

So, during my trials it was back to staying up and always having a book with me but in the midst of reading my agama notes, I came across a topic I would really like to talk write about because I felt like it gave me a smack right in the face.

The Holy Quran

We had this one topic that we learned about the greatness of the Holy Quran. It told us the history of how the Quran was being passed down to human beings and stuff. We were taught that the Quran was sometimes revealed like the ringing of a bell only heard by the Prophet PBUH, was thrown into the Prophet's PBUH heart and also through a dream. The Quran became our guidance and the source of our ancestors' knowledge in the early years ever since it was passed down to us. 

"If We had sent down this Qur'an upon a mountain, you would have seen it humbled and coming apart from fear of Allah . And these examples We present to the people that perhaps they will give thought."  Quran (59:21)

The responsibility of the learning the amazing ayahs of the Quran was so big that if it was sent to other living things, they won't be able to take that big of a responsibility. Only human beings were able to do so. The ayah also teaches us that we have to ponder upon the greatness of the Quran and how far we'd go to learn and understand the Quran. Then, it hit me. All the days I put the worldly things before spending a minute or two reading the Quran, suddenly didn't seem so worth it anymore. I even started to remember how it felt like when every time I was sad or I needed guidance, I read the Quran. I felt like the emptiness in my chest was filled with all these wonderful feeling of worship and gratitude. I also remembered how much I liked that feeling. So, I'm back to my "Quran time" every night after Isya' or before Maghrib. Been missing out for quite awhile, sigh. Alhamdulillah, I lived to see another day and was given the chance appreciate more things in life.

Sunday, 3 August 2014

for you, palestine.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 

Yesterday, I got the chance to experience what a rally was like but this rally, came with a good cause. Alhamdulillah, it opened my eyes even more to things that was happening in the world. Viva Palestina Malaysia together with Aqsa Syarif held a peaceful rally at Dataran Merdeka in support of Palestinians. 

It was such a beautiful view, to see people despite of race and religion come together showing the face of humanity. I cannot think of a better way to have spent my Saturday. We chanted freedom for Palestine, freedom for the children throughout the whole hour. There was a flash mob and people weren't even bothered by the hot weather, masyaaAllah, bless your good souls. 

I can no longer express my anger and sadness for Palestine anymore. It has come to a point where the red line has been crossed and from war, it has turned into genocide. It feels like there is no more hope in humanity. Until yesterday. When I saw almost 50 000 people protesting and standing up for Palestine, I knew that no matter how dark the journey gets, we will always find a light, insyaaAllah. I am now convinced that no matter how small and weak we may seem compared to Israel, we will not let Palestine die without a fight. I will try my level best to keep on raising awareness and educating people on what is really happening in their land. Palestine's land, not Israel's. Even if takes hundreds of rallies to attend to alert the world on what is happening then be it, hundreds of rallies I will show up to. I will stand strong with Palestine and I, not just as Muslim, as a human, will not let them die without a fight. 

Friday, 25 July 2014

ignorance is not bliss

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 

I got stuck in the hospital for like a week and couldn't fast for so long because of dengue, I started regretting the days I took my healthy body for granted. In all seriousness though, all I really did was sleep and I did a lot of thinking about a lot of things but on top of my list is the war that is going on. One day, I woke up from my sleep and the top tweet on my Twitter was a picture of a father crying beside his daughters' bodies. His daughters being covered in blood and some gun shots. My heart shattered into pieces. 

How could someone be so inhumane ? How could someone point a sniper at innocent children and pull the trigger ? How could someone ignore the terrified look in the people's eyes before they shoot ? How could someone go to sleep at night knowing they killed a family, probably hundreds a day ? How could someone look at a little girl they're about to shoot and not think about their daughters, nieces ? 

Infinite questions lingering in thin air, yet nobody has the answers. I don't have much to offer to the people suffering but I can offer you my prayers so that Allah SWT keeps you safe and grants you Jannah for your bravery in standing up for our religion. Allah SWT is testing them with such a big test in this holy month but they're still standing strong and I hope the world is standing with them. My heart breaks for the people but I will always, with all my imaan- always pray for you. 

Sunday, 6 July 2014

Ramadhan thoughts

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

A week in Ramadhan and Alhamdulillah, so far so good ! What about you guys ? I hope you have started on that checklist because it helps a lot. I'm trying to complete everything on the checklist but I'm still a few deeds short, insyaaAllah soon !

I've been listening to Sheikh Mishary a lot lately because somehow, I really miss Mekah. I haven't had the chance to experience Ramadhan in Mekah yet, but I can feel it in my bones that it would be amazing. I miss the surrounding of smiling people, the sight of the Kaabah everyday, the sight of people reading the Quran and doing zikr literally all the time, the sight of people rushing to the masjid to get there in time to join the jemaah, I just miss everything there. I forget to worry about the petty worldly things there, I guess that's the beauty of being in a place that reminds you so much of how beautiful your religion is. It reminds me of how I haven't been grateful about being a Muslim. I am so lucky to be able to experience and learn about the beauty of Islam. I am so lucky Allah SWT made Islam put women so high but men still get equality. I am so lucky Allah SWT made Islam restrict food and drinks that are bad for my health. I am so lucky Allah SWT made Islam, a religion that practices both the temporary and permanent world. I am so lucky to be given the chance to be a Muslim and everyday, I am grateful for that. I hope that the All Mighty forgives me if there is ever a time that I am ungrateful for that. This holy month has got me thinking and reflecting about a lot of things, Alhamdulillah. 3 more weeks to go, hope you all have been doing nothing but good deeds this month !

missing Mekah :(

Sunday, 29 June 2014

Ramadhan, welcome back !

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Alhamdulillah, we get to experience another month full of mercy, gratitude, kindness and love. I cannot believe how fast time is flying. I don't know if you guys notice but I say this in almost all of my posts haha because it's true ! One minute, it's only the beginning of the year and the next, we're already fasting for Ramadhan ! This year, I'm even more excited than usual. I have all these things I'm planning to do and I have a checklist I got from Twitter too ! Tahajjud, be kind, no backbiting, sharing my Iftar, making my parents smile, tell my parents I love them and so much more. I've put my mind into it so now, I'm hoping to achieve it. 

print 4 of these to cover the whole month of Ramadhan
and start ticking on your good deeds !

Before I forget, I seek forgiveness to those who I have wronged before and I hope that this holy month can be a new start for us. To those that I may or may not have hurt with either my words or actions, forgive me. Forgive me if I have responded rudely, not responded at all or anything that might have hurt you in anyway. Most importantly, I hope we all learn to forgive ourselves. Forgiveness from others and forgiveness from the All Mighty is granted, important but we also need to forgiveness from within. We all have done things that we regret so, don't beat yourself up. There's always time to improve and for as long as you live, you will always improve, insyaaAllah. Ramadhan has always been the month that I look forward to because I see all different kinds of people trying to change themselves for the better. Even if people call you "Ramadhan Muslim", so what ? Today, you may be a Ramadhan Muslim but who knows, tomorrow you will be a full time Mukmin ? Have faith in yourself and have faith in Allah SWT. Ramadhan Mubarak, my dear sisters & brothers !

Sunday, 15 June 2014


Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 

I can't believe I'm actually saying this but I'm pretty excited for school. Sad that the holidays have come to an end but pumped to start pushing myself to really study hard. All I want to focus on for the next few months of my high school life would be studying and achieving straight As for my parents. If any of you have the same plan, may the odds be ever in your favor.

I'd like to say thank you to everyone who wished me on my birthday, I hope I replied to all of you ! If I didn't, I'm so sorry but thank you. Someone planned a really nice surprise for me and there are some memorable and precious pictures I'd like to share !

hugging the girl that played a huge role in inviting all my good friends, del <3
of course, the camwhoring begins hahaha
keanu giving a speech on behalf of my friends
papa giving a speech on behalf of asyraf's family
mummy giving a speech on behalf of my family
i may or may not have cried :p

seeing almost all my closest friends from different schools and the people that meant a lot to me in one room, was probably the second best thing that night (first best thing was the surprise duhh haha)

pictures with the families.

so grateful for the both of them.
zane never misses the cake cutting and candle blowing hahaha
not forgetting, the someone that made it all happen. you are literally the best.
i have never met someone so kind, so loving and so patient. i have forgotten what it's like
to not have your presence in my life and i hope that i will never have to remember
because i'll always want you around. you make me so happy, it's unbelievable.
i may not say it enough but it's true, you know it is. i don't know what i did to deserve you.
 thank you for everything.
i love you so much, Sheikh Asyraf Bux.

Sunday, 1 June 2014

ramadhan enthusiasm

"Zakah expenditures are only for the poor and for the needy and for those employed to collect [zakah] and for bringing hearts together [for Islam] and for freeing captives [or slaves] and for those in debt and for the cause of Allah for the [stranded] traveller - an obligation [imposed] by Allah. and Allah is Knowing and Wise." (Quran 9:60)

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

June. My favourite month has finally arrived ! My holidays started off pretty well and I'd say, one of the most productive holidays I've had. How's yours been going on ? Can't believe Ramadhan is coming soon ?! So excited ! 

Speaking of Ramadhan, do you guys want to score some extra pahala with me ? My grand aunty came by last week and told me about this great refugee charity. I know what you're thinking, "Refugees ? All those illegal immigrants, why would we want to help them when they enter our country illegally ?". Now now, clear all those negative thoughts. It's a month that's supposed to be about sharing and caring, right ?  Since refugees have to go through a tough time trying to make a living here, a small community of masyaAllah, amazing and kind hearted people decided to help them this coming Ramadhan. 

They will start by collecting donations and trying to get sponsors to help raise money to buy some food and drinks for the people. Then, on the first day of Ramadhan, they will pick a suitable place to give out the food for free as a little gift for berbuka. They are hoping to raise enough money to at least feed a thousand people since the amount of Muslim refugees in our country is quite a number. They also need a lot of volunteers on the day they give out the food because they will need all the help they can get. I will give out details on this little charity work soon and I'm hoping to get my blog readers to help out ! I will, insyaAllah be there to participate as well. Man, I'm psyched for Ramadhan !

Friday, 23 May 2014


Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 

Phew ! Mid Term is o-v-e-r hahaha but of course, just Mid Term not SPM pfft. I'll admit, I have been lacking of posts this month but it's genuinely just because of exams, promise ! Guys..... It's going to be June soon. A few months away from the biggest exam of my dunya life, I am so scared...

I came up with a new resolution as preparation for Ramadhan ! Surprise, surprise haha. I am going to dispose of all toxic in my life. Seriously, I'm talking about healthy food and errthang. Okay, no *takes out a tub of ice cream*. I'm talking about toxic people. I realized that the longer I have these kind of people in my life, I become more impatient and I tend to stoop to their level of idiocy. They don't deserve my time and energy *flips scarf*. Or, in your case, they don't deserve YOUR time and energy. So, let's give "disposing of toxic people in your life" a    shot !

Friday, 9 May 2014

interfaith dialogue

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 

Okay, now I think that time is flying by really really REALLY fast. It's already May. Few more months then I'll be done with school. Funny how everytime my friends and I talk about school finally being over for us, we always say "I remember like it was just yesterday that we were in form 1". I never want to go back to being form 1 and having to repeat school ahaha.

A couple of days back, I was on Facebook (like I don't have my Mid Term coming up blergh) and then I found this video. I'm telling you, best 13 minutes of my life. 

It's so amazing how this guy managed to make some absolutely mind opening points but also not insult any other religion. We seriously need more people like him in the world. Everytime I watch videos or read articles on some people with beliefs other than Islam say that Islam is a religion of war, bombs or violence, I feel really sad. I think Islam, just like other religions, is a religion that practices peace, love, equality and all the good things. I have a couple of Christian friends who are super duper religious but when we start talking about other religions, they are very open minded to accepting that other religions are not wrong because to some people, they are right. They might not be right to you but that's your problem. Whatever people want to have faith in, is their own choice. When it comes to religion, I think that it's not something you can preach about and expect everyone to just follow. The faith must come from the heart without being forced onto. I realized how sensitive religion talks can be because of how emotional some people can get when other people don't straight away accept it. Maybe someday, I shall organize an interfaith charity work so that everyone can see how wonderful the world would be if we all just put our differences aside and act as one.

Tuesday, 15 April 2014

first time for everything

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Crazy, huh ?! Never has it ever crossed my mind that there would ever be a write up on me, especially in the newspaper ! But, I was proven that nothing is impossible. Alhamdulillah, the one thing that has always been a big part of me has become something that is noticed by society. I don't know if you'll believe me when I say, it's not about the fame. Really. My first ever thought when I signed up for a blog was, "Someday, I'm going to be big enough to make a difference." MasyaAllah, all your endless supports, positive (and negative) comments, inspiring emails and so much more, made it possible to put me where I am today. Made me even happier to know that some of my blog readers aren't even Muslim ! So, to my loyal readers, thank you. May Allah SWT bless you in ways that I'm not able to. 

P/S ; Thank you, Arina Azlan for making it possible xx

Monday, 7 April 2014

little thing called love

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

I wrote a little something on Tumblr recently and when I posted it on Twitter, BAM ! Too many good response, masyaAllah. Soooo, I decided to put it up on the one place that would always have a special place in my heart hehe.

My boyfriend (soon to be husband, hopefully) and I are 9 years apart. When we met, I was 16 and he was 25. People are always asking me, "Why are you dating a guy so much older than you ?". Today, I finally thought about what my answer is. Older boys are much more matured and experienced. Yes, such a simple and cliché answer but it's true ! I have finally found a guy who knows that loving a girl isn't just about her looks or the size of her body. It's about falling in love with her personality and literally who she is. My boyfriend isn't able to touch me due to our religion. In Islam, we were taught to never touch opposite genders unless you are married or family. So, when he told me he wanted to marry me, I knew that it was out of pure love and not lust. Marriage, such a funny thing to say because I'm still very very young. Knowing a guy who has had experiences in his past relationships that lasted years but didn't work out, wanted to marry me, it really is something. He has gone out and seen the world and the type of girls out there. He could've chose a girl his age or two years younger to marry but he chose me. He chose the girl who he had to wait to finish school for, the schoolgirl who had built walls higher than ever that he had to break through before really getting to know. There were so many days that he had to deal with the immature 16-year-old I can be but he stayed throughout. Not once have I ever even seen a sign of giving up. Of course, he isn't the guy that romantically sweeps me off my feet all the time but hey, reality is, life isn't a movie. I've found a guy who truly understands what real commitment will be like. It will sometimes be sacrificing his late night outs with his boys because he needs to put the kids to bed, it will be about letting her win the argument although you are right or sometimes, it will simply be about missing a football match because she needs some sleep while you rock your newborn baby to bed. I finally met a guy who I know if I decided to spend the rest of my life with, despite the wrinkles that will appear, the body shape that will change, the teeth that will fall out, he would still love me for me. Commitment isn't a bed of roses, there will be sacrifices but you get to choose who you make those sacrifices for. So, make good choices. 

Tuesday, 1 April 2014

spending in the way of Allah SWT

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Happy April Fools ! Before anybody starts pointing that out, I'm sorry. I was just joking haha. Well, another month has already passed. Maaan, why is time so short nowadays ! Ok I take that back, no complaining. Thank you, Allah for being so generous and giving us 24 hours a day. I really appreciate it. 

Sorry I've been MIA, you guys. This sem break I had so much going on, I totally forgot to blog ! By so much going on, that includes studying ok ! Anyways, as most of you know, I have been bitten by the baking bug. Yup... I think I baked almost everyday last week. Since everyone is always finishing my muffins and cakes, I'm going to assume it's delicious. So, I was out at the supermarket earlier today. While waiting in line to pay for my things, an old couple in front of me were paying for their stuff. I accidentally overheard their conversation with the cashier telling her that RM36 was way too expensive for a couple of brooms and a pail. I was thinking, "Expensive...? I usually spent over RM100 for a blouse or two !". Then, it hit me.... 

To a lot of people, the amount of money spent even on the things they need are sometimes too much but to me, the amount of money spent on the things I want (not need) is never enough ! I started feeling so bad towards the flying money that had been spent on my favourite Chanel bags, Chanel flats, my Balenciaga.... :( So, I am now going to do more with the money than just spend them on my materialistic needs wants. Chaaarity ! I always feel like a weight of burden had been lifted off my shoulders everytime I do something good and my favourite has always been charity. Anybody wants to do some charity with me ? :D

"So fear Allah as much as you are able and listen and obey and spend [in the way of Allah]; it is better for yourselves. And whoever is protected from the stinginess of his soul - it is those who will be successful" (Quran 64:16)

Sunday, 16 March 2014

dim sum dinner

All you can eat dim sum for dinner. Think I've had enough dim sum for a year....

And no.... I don't lift weights bahahaha

Friday, 14 March 2014

friday thoughts

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Okay, lately I've been having my no mojo mood. Like, one minute I'd have tons of things in my mind to blog about but the moment I open my laptop, zero. After the whole Vivy thing, Asyraf kept telling me that nowadays, I blog more about events happening in my life rather than blogging about what I'm really good at (well, at least that's what he said) - preaching. Well, not the huge kind of preach more like reaching out to our younger generation in a less scary way. You know, like not telling them they are going to go to hell because they don't repent and such. And for that you guys, I'm sorry. 

Truth is, before this I used to get motivations on what to write based on the islamic related questions I get on but now, all I get are questions like, "what product are you using ?" "when are you going to get married ?" "why are you so lucky ?". As much as I understand your curiosities but the whole reason I made was to reach out to people who needed my help. Now, it's the total opposite :( 

Buuuuut, good news ! I've a little something to share today hehe. 

Recently, I've just had this talk with one of my schoolmates. He was telling me about a couple of tweetfamous people (people who are famous on Twitter) who are known to be extremely pious. He was mentioning about how this girl who wears niqab, whom tweeted a thing that was against what Islam is teaching. So, doing what anyone would've done, he replied with a stand saying he doesn't think it's right. This girl with an enormous amount of followers on Twitter replied by saying he was wrong and so on. Then, a bunch of her followers started like backing her up. See, this is where social networks gets really messed up. 

Just because you are known to be pious, doesn't mean you are right all the time. When someone explains to you what you just spread isn't exact according to what we are taught, you should take it as an advice and correct your mistake. In fact, even when I accidentally spread out a wrong message to my followers and when somebody corrects me, I immediately apologize and correct my mistake. Humans make mistakes. We are not known to be infallible like the Prophets before us. I get extremely pissed and annoyed with people who come out as pious and "educated" but cannot accept the fact that they can be wrong sometimes. Just because you cover your face or wear a kopiah around, you are still human and you don't run from making mistakes. 

I hope that I get my message out and nobody takes it the wrong way. 

"What comes to you of good is from Allah , but what comes to you of evil, [O man], is from yourself. And We have sent you, [O Muhammad], to the people as a messenger, and sufficient is Allah as Witness." (Quran 4:79)

Saturday, 8 March 2014

of unexpected events

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

I suppose that all of us (maybe) is pretty updated on the incident that involved one of our Malaysia Airlines flight, MH370. Although there wasn't any direct family members of mine in that particular flight, when I heard the news, my heart just fell. I can't even start to imagine what the family members of the passengers, cabin crews and pilots were feeling. 

This shows how little time you actually have with your loved ones. Can you imagine if someone so close to you was taken away by surprise ? That isn't even the worst part. Imagine if you don't even know what happened to him/her. Imagine the pain one has to endure to just keep going every single day. Oh, how much it hurts. Maybe it's really about time the ummah come together and repent. 

Ya Allah, if this is your way of showing how much we've sinned and forgotten you, forgive us. So many trials you've already tested us with and we're not even sure if we're able to get through it. Ya Allah, I hope you give the people that's facing more than others the strength to move on and never lose faith. I pray that they will see the best in the worst conditions. I hope that Allah forgives all of us for what we have sinned and forgotten to ask forgiveness for.

Wednesday, 5 March 2014

boys or men...

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

A little something I got from Twitter for the boys or men to ponder upon. Brb, gonna go smack my brothers now.

Friday, 21 February 2014

Vivy Sofinas Yusof

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 

The craziest thing just happened to me. Something I, myself never expected haha. Vivy mentioned me. Not like the reply kind of mention but like this-is-meant-for-you kind of mention. Craaaaazy I know !!!! I'm still starstrucked hahaha. But, this is what she posted.

Okay, you guys gotta visit her instagram ; vivyyusof to see it with a better view hahaha. Everyone is so confused on why I'm the blog reader that made a difference in her life so, I'll just let it slip. Several months ago, I emailed her through her blog. Being one of her most loyal blog reader, I do want to see her step up to a new level in her life. So, I gathered all the guts I could find in myself and emailed her. I said everything I wanted to through that one email but I never really thought she read it. Until yesterday hehe. I'm sorry but I don't think I'm going to share what I wrote to her because that was something said from the heart to the one person that I really adore (other that my mum, that is). If you guys are lucky enough, maybe she'll share what I emailed her :)

And the most insane thing is - I never thought the blog reader that made a difference in her life was me.

Sooooo what are you waiting for ? Go grab the Hijabista magazine and see what Vivy Yusof shared about about her hijrah !

P/S ; Thanks for the heads up, Sabby !

Sunday, 16 February 2014

sunday special

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 

My man has not been in the best mood for these past couple of days. It's just the little things that piles up then it really gets to you. Nothing to do with me, really. Just things like his car, less sleep and some other stuff. So, I thought, I'd come up with something to cheer him up a little. 

I asked if he wanted to go out for dinner Sunday night and he agreed. In secret, I was planning an intimate home cooked dinner at home. I told him I had a wedding to attend and some shopping to do with mum which means I'll be busy the whole day, when in reality, I was home all day marinating lamb and making dessert. All day long in the kitchen definitely paid off when I saw that smile on his face when I told him the whole thing was just a tiny surprise for him. 

Before dinner -

Him : "Sayang, if the food isn't as delicious I'll still say mmm, sedapnya"

Me : -_-"

During dinner -

Him : "This is so good. Are you sure you cooked it all by yourself ?"

Me : "Mum helped laaa"

After dinner -

Him : "I'm so full !" *lies down on the couch*

Me : "Don't lie down. You'll get fatter than you already are"

Now... Where's the award for best future wife ?

Sunday, 9 February 2014

good times

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

The other day, Asyraf was complaining about how boring it is in the cockpit when he flies nowadays. Funny, because he absolutely loves his job. Then, he said it was because I make his life waaay too interesting that everything else bores him now hahaha. Okay, so maybe he finds his new car more interesting than me but lets put that aside and focus on the fact that I make his life interesting. Now there's too much interesting in this post...

Sometimes, when we look back at the photos that was taken months ago, we'd be like "Eh... we went there ?" or "Oh yeaaah, we did that !". We forget because we've had too many good times with a certain someone. Be it, your sister or brother, bestfriend or your other half. Don't believe me ? Look back at photos of you and your bestfriend's last shopping spree or you and your boyfriend's first date years ago. You'd definitely smile remembering those times. I guess it's a good thing that cameras were invented. We get to capture those good times. Thank you to whoever that invented cameras ! Too many men created too many things back then I couldn't even get the exact name sheesh.. 

Thursday, 30 January 2014

more than any materialistic gains

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Okay, the title of this post isn't the most original title since I stole it from one of Asyraf's caption bahaha but I think we all can start guessing where this post leads right ? 

I think after like spending a lot and I mean, A LOT of time with just my loved ones, I have come to realize that I am so lucky to still have my family & loved ones around. Can you imagine the people without parents or the ones who have lost their siblings or the ones that were left at an orphanage ? Imagine the pain they have to endure.. :( 

So, when I look at my family spending time together or when I'm just lazying around with Asyraf's family, I just start to think, "Alhamdulillah". Pure happiness is really just having your loved ones around. I mean, as much as Chanel, Balenciaga, Prada and all those materialistic things put a big smile on my face, they eventually leave sad remarks on my parents' wallets hahaha ! Having my loved ones around is FOC and it makes me smile too ! I guess there are some things that money can't buy :)

Nadal, I love you just as much, I promise but I couldn't find any nice photos of us ahahaha sorry :p