Sunday, 29 December 2013

5 days, 4 nights

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 

There goes another year. Well, almost haha. The family is practically insane about bonding time and I really am grateful for that, Alhamdulillah. Because everyone is usually so busy on other days, holidays are the days we make up for it and make everyday family day. So, after tons of arguing and disagreeing, Singapore was our final decision. 

I am not one to take photos of EVERYTHING I do but mum is. 




And just when I thought my holiday couldn't get any better, someone decided to surprise me. 



(Playing it cool) It was a nice surprise. Hahahaha who am I kidding ? I cried. I was so happy and for the very first time, those tears were literally out of pure happiness. I guess I could use more of these surprises hehehe. Because it was Christmas, I didn't really expect him to come. Not enough crew lah, bad weather some more so, I guess not. Everyone was rushing me to get ready real quick because we were "going out" and the moment I stepped out of the apartment - there he was. Being his handsome  poyo self, with a big smile on his face. I remember just standing there. 2 seconds later, I giggled then started to cry and everyone was so confused hahaha. I was happy, really. Thanks, baby. For the lovely surprise, the little bit of shopping we did and the greatest 72 hours of my life. 

USS 





I hope that Allah SWT will always bless us with this strong bond. For those who didn't get to spend enough time with their family this holiday, steal these few days left for your loved ones. Spend your New Year's Eve together, countdown to New Year together. Heck, you can even just stay in bed together. Just bond. They're not always going to be around so, don't take them for granted.



Saturday, 14 December 2013

a ball of happiness

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

My Friday night and Saturday was spent at his sister's place. First official I-didn't-cry sleepover with a couple of thirty year olds with two kids haha. I came over like a bit later at night so by the time I arrived, Zane was already in bed but Dana was still up. Bonded a bit, watched Shawshank Redemption (thank you, Nadal and Kak Sher ! I have literally no regrets staying up till' 3 am just to watch it haha) and then it was lights off.

I was woken up by Dana's little cries at like 6 am and I couldn't go back to sleep because it was already Subuh and stuff. Then later on, I found out I tried to cuddled with Kak Sher in my sleep haha talk about embarrassing ! I did nap on the couch though then when I woke up, my little Zane was just staring blankly at me like "wait, is Kakak Nu really here.... but it's so early in the morning..." and after like 2 seconds trying to hug him, he gave me a big smile then muttered "Kakak!" awww that little boy I tell you ! When Dana woke up, I had her on my chest the whole time except for when she needs to feed haha and the moment I put her down, she starts to cry. Though, I did get a lot of help from Nadal's mum, thank you Aunty ! I love how Dana is so attached to me ! I hope when the both of you grow up, you'd love Aunty Nu more than your Uncle Boy hehehe :p So emotionally attached to Zane and Dana now, I don't want them to grow up too quickly :(



Oh, yeah ! Happy 34th year Anniversary, ma and pa ! I hope that your lives will always be filled with joy and unconditional love, insyaaAllah. May Allah always bless you guys. Both of you are definitely one of the kindest people I've met in my life. Thank you for so easily accepting me into the family <3





Thursday, 12 December 2013

appreciating moments

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

I decided that my blog deserves more updates this month due to me missing in action for sooo long in November. Just recently, I got an email from one of my followers. She was talking about how she used to want to date a pilot but then the job requires that person to be away most of the time so she changed her mind. Funny because I always had this thought where I would never ever date a pilot (look where that got me haha!)

When someone mentions about his occupation being the reason we don't get to spend all the time we want with each other makes me realize something. His occupation is the reason I learn to appreciate and cherish the moments or times I have to spend with him. I learn that when we do go out and have a good time, I try my level best not to ruin it or make it less fun for both of us (especially when it's my time of the month!). I am also thankful that when he has his day offs, he makes time for me but if his day offs are too short to spend time with both me and his family, he includes me in his family plans. So, most of the time we end up doing what both of us agree on, having our meals at places we both like and be back at home before my curfew ? Haha. See ? It's not impossible to have a career and spend some quality time with people who matter to you. I guess that, it doesn't matter what someone does for a living, whether it's your husband, wife, mum or dad, everyone should make time for the people they love and during those times, you appreciate it.

Promise I'm not overly attached !

                                       


Monday, 9 December 2013

brainy bunch charity event

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Just when I thought I could sneak in a post or two before November ends, December comes rushing in like nobody's business ! Sorry if I have been keeping a lot of you waiting but since it's the school holidays, I have tons of family plans and outings, tv shows to catch up on (haha!), reunion to plan with some old friends and sooo much more ! A few Saturdays back, I had the chance to attend Brainy Bunch's Charity Event because my uncle was one of the speakers and boy, am I glad I spent my Saturday there alright ! I was not being sarcastic, nope hahaha. Their performances were done by some Brainy Bunch's kindergarten children and their theme was freedom for Syria, Palestine, Gaza and countries experiencing the same thing they are. Read my blog post about these countries here ; http://thegirlinabaya.blogspot.com/2013_07_01_archive.html

The kids were so amazing ! Kids around the age of 4/5 years old if I'm not mistaken started off their performance by reciting Surah Al-Bayyinah. Not even reading it from the Quran or anything, they actually memorized it ! Then, there was a 9 year old kid reciting a poem in Arabic (fluently!), kids singing and dancing to freedom songs and so much more ! And of course, being a children lover I enjoyed every second I spent watching those performances and talking to a few kids. I've got to admit, although I'm not a parent just yet, I would definitely send my (future, insyaaAllah) kids to Brainy Bunch International Islamic Montessori. They don't just learn the usual Science and Math stuff we do but they also major in Islamic Studies which we, kids from normal school lack. Hearing most of the speakers talk about how important the choice of school is, what kind of education we educate our kids in, the impact of parents not paying enough attention to their children's islamic education really opened my eyes on how I would like to educate my kids ! It is truly an amazing achievement to see your 5 year old kid be able to read the Quran with perfect tajwid and speak at least a bit of Arabic. Think about it.


And just when I thought this school couldn't get any better, I met this dashing little kid !  His name is Charles. He is a Christian and so is his mum but they were both very active in making the charity event a successful event ! This kid who I'm guessing goes to Brainy Bunch International Islamic Montessori memorizes 20 hadiths ! During the charity event, he also performed a duaa (yes, with saying "Oh, Allah!") with some other kids. Amazing really how important the right education is.

P/S ; this kid successfully made me fall in love with him within seconds !




Saturday, 2 November 2013

being human

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

November... Is it just me or is time flying by really fast...? I'm not sure if you guys know this but 1st Muharram falls on the 5th of November this year according to the Gregorian Calender. Muharram is the first month of the Islamic Calendar. People say that the 1st Muharram is the day Allah SWT changes the list of our deeds to new ones, wallahualam. So, before the day arrives, I would like to apologize for all my wrong doings towards anyone at all, intentionally or not. I'm truly sorry if I've ever hurt any of you by my words or actions but please know that I've never meant to actually hurt you. I am really really really sorry. I pray that we all renew our new list with unlimited good deeds to replace the wrong doings we've done in our past, insyaaAllah.

Being Human 

I honestly dislike the idea of me some of you have in your mind. I am no angel. I am a slave of Allah SWT that makes mistakes, is still flawed but is still trying to be better everyday. Stop putting it in your heads that I am a perfect muslimah with zero mistakes because I, Nurin Qistina is far from perfect and the earlier you guys realize that, the less you guys expect from me. Forgive me to sound rude but I think that some of you are paying TOO much attention to my life that it has come to a point where you are invading my privacy. I understand that some of you are curious and it is normal to be but please, stop making me look like the bad person in MY personal life. I have my reasons and sometimes things just don't work out but that's life. Allah SWT sometimes hands you good things in life but the next second, He just takes it away and it is all in His liking. I am truly grateful of the hidayah Allah SWT has given me and I will not take it for granted in any way possible.



I would also like to take this opportunity to thank my really good friends for always finishing the food I bring to school, listening to my thousand rants, laughing at my lame jokes (pfftttt more like making fun of me because of my lame jokes) and most importantly making my growing up years worthwhile. So, thank you, Deliana, Zalisha, Sabrina, Lisa, Annafiza, Izelea, Irina, Sophiya, Aina, Aqilah, Aida, Sarah, Myra, Raha, Farah, Adilah, Nadiah, Afiqah Malek, Syarafina, Nurin Amalia, Aainaa, Syaqira, Ainin, Taqi, Imran, Bob, Yusof, Haziq, Luqman, Zharif, Nik Mahyiddin, Aqil, Fazril, Faris, Amin Fadzil and everyone who I may or may not have forgotten to mention. Those who I am still close to throughout all these years, I hope you guys stay in my life forever (that is a very long time okay !), those who I may not talk to anymore, thank you for being in my life even though it was just for a short while, those who I'm just starting to get close to and is still getting to know, I hope our friendship goes beyond high school <3




Thursday, 24 October 2013

moment of appreciation

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Been wanting to update my blog like weeks ago but never finding the perfect time because I've been so busy studying pffft for final examination (and can I please remind myself that it is in a few days!!), family time, friends & someone.... I haven't even had the chance to have some me time ! Okay, so, I'm having some me time now thanks to the MC Dr Adnan gave to me, may Allah bless you for the great job you do keeping people healthy ! The MC is for this terrible backache I'm having now :( Mhmm... time of the month :( This backache just gave me something great to blog about hehehehe

This backache has brought me to a realization that mothers, especially pregnant ones are amaaaaazing ! Backaches are no joke okay they are so painful so so so PAINFUL. I left school early yesterday because I couldn't take walking with the terrible backache. When I came home, I manja with mum then took a nap...... for like 5 hours bahahahaha. The backache lasted the whole day ! Who am I kidding.. It's still here. The most famous line I've been saying is, "I feel like a pregnant lady!". Men ; will never understand the pain of period cramps !! But nevertheless, I'm grateful I'm a woman, Alhamdulillah.


Mum, thank you for going through all the fuss of carrying me in your little womb for 9 months. I never really thought of how tough it was (I mean I know it's not easy) but this backache made me realize that yes, it was so freaking tough. I cannot imagine the sleepless nights due to backache, me moving non stop and I cannot imagine the torture when I was born haha the nights I'd cry from 12 am straight up to Subuh ! Mum, you really are a superwoman. Thanks for being my superwoman <3 To my step Dad, thanks for being the greatest Dad in the world. A lucky girl, I am. I appreciate the bond I have with both of you. Thanks for being the greatest parents and bestfriend to me. Even when I'm married, I don't ever want to stop being your baby girl. I'll be that one child who just sticks around for a very long time until both of you get annoyed hehe. I love you.

Appreciate your parents while they're still around. Allah SWT is only lending them to you and He can take them back anytime. Apologize to them while you still can, hug them, bond with them, appreciate the time you have with them and most importantly, love them with all that you've got. Now go give your parents a big hug and some sloppy kisses !

P/S ; Yes, annoying siblings. I love all of you too. Amalin is MIA. Again sigh. Boarding school must suck huh because you keep missing out on family events !




Friday, 11 October 2013

dream come true trip

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

I realize that I haven't updated much in September but it's not because I didn't have anything to blog about but I've been too busy with everything else in my life. 

Wow. October already, can you believe it ?

The other day, me and my friends were talking about some people who update their blog daily. Writing about their family, vacations and such. I have nothing against people who update their blog about their personal life and yes, I would looooove to update my blog daily but you will most probably read about me and my friends enjoying food in class EVERYDAY haha. Since I'm still in school, my life would mean I'll be in school most of the day pfftttt who would want to read about that ? I've bore myself just thinking about it haha but maybe, someday, insyaaAllah when I'm already in university or working or whatever, I'll make it a habit to update my blog more than once or twice or three times a month. Aaaaaand guess what I'm going to blog about today ?!!!???! :D


Ah, yes. I have finally decided it's time I share the experience I had on the holy land. I know that most of you have requested it for months now but I had no mojo (Allah bless you, Lisa for always saying mojo everytime you had no idea what to write for our English essays) and I hope whatever I'm about to say will level up the amount of time you pray to Allah SWT asking Him to quickly invite you over so you can feel how happyexcitedterrificincredibleamazingblessedandmanymoreemotionsthatIcan'tthinkof I was when I went hehe. Yes, the whole emotions thing was meant to be in one long sentence without any spaces in between because I said it in speed motion in my mind.

You know how you have to have Visa to go to Mekah ? Scratch that you have to have Visa to go anywhere haha but then you have that special Visa or something to go for Umrah. Well, that was the first time Allah SWT decided to test me. When Mum & Dad applied for Visa, I didn't think it would be such a big deal, I mean it was just Visa ?? BUT me, Rayyan and Danish's Visa(s) couldn't go through because we were using my step dad as our mahram and although my step dad is already counted as my mahram in Islam, the Saudi Arabia wouldn't allow it. Mum said if our Visas didn't go through even after applying again (this time with a letter from my real dad allowing us to go to Mekah with my Mum and step dad), we would have to stay in Jordan for three weeks. I was devastated. A few weeks later, Mum told us that Rayyan and Danish's Visa(s) was done but........ mine still couldn't go through. Haihhhh. We were just days away from our trip to Madinah and still my Visa wasn't ready. To make things worse, I was going through my time of the month so I couldn't actually pray. I only had hopes that Allah SWT would listen (He was listening, of course. Always listening) to my tiny whines and how much my heart kept saying "Ya Allah, please please please. I want this more than anything pleaseeee". That night I cried thinking Allah SWT wasn't ready to invited me to his home just yet.

Two days away from the Umrah trip, my siblings and I went out for a movie. In the cinema, Mum called and shouted "KAKAK YOU GOT YOUR VISA ALREADY !!!!". I swear I think I screamed without realizing I was in a cinema. Oh you have no idea what I felt at that moment. "Alhamdulillah ! Alhamdulillah, ya Allah" I whispered to Mum on the phone. So the very night I went back home, put in ONE jubah, a scarf, a Quran and my kain telekung in my suitcase and yes, I was ready to go. Only one extra jubah in my suitcase now explains the gazillion amount of jubah Mum and Dad got me at Madinah.

MADINAH

So, we took a bus from Jeddah to Madinah and I think it was a 6/7 or even possibly 9 hour trip ? I can't really recall but I had my family friends, Syaza and Sara with me in the bus so we put on our headphones and pretty much did our thing. The flight from Singopore to Jeddah was already tiring so, really I couldn't afford anymore talking. We arrived Madinah just in time for Subuh so, Ami Yahya checked us in the Royal Andalus, the hotel we stayed in at Madinah we did a little unpacking, made wudhu' and left for prayers. Me and Syaza prayed side by side while Sara and Farrah went MIA. Ya Allah, I cannot explain in words what it was like praying in a surrounding where people were racing and literally fighting to get in the Masjid Nabawi (our Prophet's PBUH masjid). All shops just close up or shop owners just leave and quickly ran to pray whatever prayer we were suppose to at that time. Other than sightseeing, we probably ate most of the time and Ya Allah, I have totally miscounted how many times we visited Bin Dawood a day ! (and can I just please say how amazingly huge that grocery MALL is !) We also had a chance to visit Masjid Quba' and pray Dhuha then of course, being tourists we also took a few selfies in front of the masjid. In Madinah, one of the places that you shouldn't miss out on visiting is Rawdah (it holds the tomb of Nabi Muhammad SAW). I cannot even start to describe how tough it was getting into Rawdah. Ya Allah, so many people were fighting to pray in Rawdah but Alhamdulillah, me, Mum, Syaza, Sara and Nadiah were able to pray at the front row in Rawdah. The most unforgettable memory was how many times me, Syaza, Sara and Farrah went back and forth to Bin Dawood to get sweets and hand it to the kids who were homeless. Alhamdulillah for the home and fortunate family Allah SWT provided us with, so stop complaining about your life people !!!!






MEKAH

Readers, please put your hands together for a duaa. "Ya Allah, ya Tuhanku, please give me a chance to visit your holy land. Let me feel the peace other people have felt when they visited your home. Please let me be one of those lucky people who get to pray in front of your Kaabah, ya Allah. Rabbana atina fiddunya hasanah wafil akhirati hasanah wakina 'adhabannar. Amin amin ya rabbal alamin". There, you've just made a prayer to Allah SWT and insyaaAllah  he heard you. Have faith, OF COURSE HE HEARD YOU ! Mekah. My favourite place in the world. No words can describe how amazing the land itself is. The moment I got down the bus when my feet stepped the ground of Mekah Al-Mukarramah, I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry and just sit down on the ground letting out all my grateful feelings I had rushing in my very soul (but of course, I didn't do so haha who are we kidding thousands of people were walking around, they might even step on me!!) but yes, that was how I felt when I first stepped in Mekah. So we checked in and stuff then it was prayer time. Maghrib if I'm not mistaken and we were late so I had to pray outside the Masjidil Haram :( but it was amazing seeing over a million people all praying together ! When it was Isya' time, me, Syaza, Sara and Farrah went into Masjidil Haram and found an air-conditioned peaceful spot filled with mums and their kids ! (place where we prayed everyday). Oh, the feeling I had when I was doing my umrah. A thousand emotions, I can never explain. I looked at the Kaabah and how grateful I was to be born a Muslim, how fortunate I was to be chosen to see Kaabah in front of my very eyes. I prayed at the same spot everyday in front of the Kaabah so now I know exactly where to imagine the Kaabah is when I'm praying at home hehe. During Sa'i, I finally learned how tiring it was for Siti Hajar PBUH (Nabi Ismail's mother) to go back and forth Bukit Safa and Marwah to find water for her and her son. May Allah SWT bless her kind soul. So many homeless families and looking at the people work so hard to find halal money to support their family is just so painful because I sometimes forget how fortunate I am. May Allah SWT have mercy on them and provide them with whatever they need. What my cousins and I did most of the times were practically giving away the too much food we had or extra change in our pockets. Trust me, if you were in our shoes, you'd do the same thing.





What I'm about to share is really personal so I hope it comes out right.... hahaha. Four days in Mekah, we were at our hotel surau casually spending our free time reading the Quran then I felt this sadness but I couldn't really explain why. So, I just looked at the Quran wondering what in the world is wrong with me. Then, it just hit me like "have you been grateful enough to Allah SWT ? have you thanked Him for today ? Did you ask for His forgiveness for the sins you have committed in the past ? Have you thought of the gazillion things He has given you yet you still disobey Him sometimes ?" So, the tears started streaming down my face. I felt so ashamed to Allah SWT. After so many sins, so many wrongdoings and still, He never stopped giving. He kept giving and giving to the point where, there was nothing less in my life. I cried because I felt so much shame of how I sometimes forget to thank Allah SWT. I just sat there and cried my eye balls out. That was the day I realized that whatever I do, think, say, decide, Allah SWT first. If it makes Him happy then yes, if it makes Him upset then no. I hope that whenever you are going to do something, wherever you go in life, you think of Allah SWT so it will insyaaAllah make you a better person in the near future.




Sunday, 22 September 2013

gratitude


"and Allah will reward the grateful." Quran (3:144)

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

So, have you ever paid attention to this particular verse in surah Ali Imran ? Basically it talks about us being grateful and then getting rewarded for it. Has it ever crossed your mind that you do this tiny thing ; be grateful and you actually get rewarded for it ? And then ask yourself again, how many times do you say Alhamdulillah or even felt grateful to Allah SWT for everything he has given you ? Once a day ? Once a week ? Or at least once a month ?

What do you see or think of or do that makes you remind yourself of being grateful to Allah ? Is it when you get what you want like the guy/girl of your dreams ? Or is it when an exam goes well for you ? Is it when you eat your favorite food and you post it up online with a caption that probably says something like "Alhamdulillah for this great food" ? Why are we not grateful when we are in the midst of desperate or hard times instead ? Have you ever got wounded (emotionally/physically) so bad before that it eventually leads you to Allah SWT ? And have you ever been grateful for that wound or do you complain ? Think about it. And insyaAllah we'll learn to be more grateful to Allah SWT.




Saturday, 24 August 2013

thoughts on being a hijabi

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

As a girl and well, a hijabi, I always hear girls say "at least she wears hijab" "she's making an effort" "at least she covers her hair" AT LEAST, AT LEAST, AT LEAST ! Don't you get tired of always having to say to yourself, at least I'm wearing it, right ?

Hijab, isn't just about covering your hair and wearing long pants or even wearing long sleeved shirts. Hijab is about being modest inside and out. That's where we all miss out on. For example (this maybe sensitive but like Rasulullah said, if an advice is given and it is a good advice, accept it), some girls they wear the hijab with long pants & long sleeved shirts but it's always never right. Like maybe the hijab doesn't cover her bosoms and back properly or her long pants are so tight that you can see the shape of her legs or the long sleeved shirt she's wearing is not up to her wrist.

It was mentioned in the Quran about the hijab in Surah An-Nur : ayah 31


which meant, "And tell the believing women to reduce [some] of their vision and guard their private parts and not expose their adornment except that which [necessarily] appears thereof and to wrap [a portion of] their headcovers over their chests and not expose their adornment except to their husbands, their fathers, their husbands' fathers, their sons, their husbands' sons, their brothers, their brothers' sons, their sisters' sons, their women, that which their right hands possess, or those male attendants having no physical desire, or children who are not yet aware of the private aspects of women. And let them not stamp their feet to make known what they conceal of their adornment. And turn to Allah in repentance, all of you, O believers, that you might succeed." (Sahih International)

and also in Surah Al-'Ahzab : ayah 59


"O Prophet, tell your wives and your daughters and the women of the believers to bring down over themselves [part] of their outer garments. That is more suitable that they will be known and not be abused. And ever is Allah Forgiving and Merciful." (Sahih International)


The Quran specifically said to "wrap their headcovers over their chests" which means you have to wear your hijab correctly with covering your chest not wearing it but exposing your chest. It was also mentioned in the Quran that you cover your aurah to avoid physical desire but do you really think the fellow men can lower down their gaze if you walk around with hijab but with your chest exposed and pants so tight that it exposes the shape of your body ? Think about it. Men are responsible for their own gaze but you, ukhti are responsible for what you give them to gaze at.





Sunday, 28 July 2013

wake up, ummah !

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

The fact that I'm all cuddled up in bed in an air conditioned room with everything in place like my clothes in my closet, books on my study table complete with a television and everything else that I have but don't need bothers me when some husband (my brother in Islam) are watching their wife and daughter (my sisters in Islam) being raped and abused while their son are being held hostages or killed straight away in other parts of the world like Syria, Palestine, Gaza and so many other places that we don't even bother to pay attention to. We are all so caught up in our career, luxurious life, happiness and wealth that we forgot, there are so many unfortunate people waiting for us to lend a helping hand.

The nights when I can't seem to fall asleep, I start thinking, "How do they do it ? How do they pick themselves up after seeing their family and friends being murdered in front of their naked eyes ?" but when it comes to me, a broken heart or a broken friendship can bring so much pain.

Can you imagine ? Waking up everyday with the possibility of dying or watching your little sister or brother get shot or watching your mum get dragged away from home or watching your father get tortured but there's nothing you can do. Subhanallah. How blessed are we to be free ? Not just living in a free country but we have a free soul that allows us to go anywhere we want, do anything we want without having the fear of a nuclear bomb exploding out of nowhere or random soldiers coming to you and pointing a gun at you. Allah SWT has given us that freedom and yet, we still disobey him. Why ? Even with the worst kind of situation, they are still able to keep living their daily lives like looking for money, planting source of food, training themselves to jihad in the path of Allah SWT. The kids go out and play like there's no war threatening them. If it was us, we would probably pack our bags and go but no, they would stay and say, "Why be afraid ? This is our home. We fight for Allah SWT. We fight for our religion and freedom." Oh how strong their faith is compared to us who are still astray and being swept away with the pleasures of dunya.

I honestly think it's about time, the ummah wake up. We have to be bigger and stronger to fight for the freedom of our brothers and sisters in Islam. Wake up, ummah ! Wake up ! Everyday, a little girl is being raped and killed, a little boy is being beaten to death, a mother watches as her children suffers but what can she do ? She is only a woman, not strong enough to stand up to the soldiers holding big guns. All her husband can do is comfort her by telling her, "Remember zaujati, Allah SWT is always with us. He hears our every prayer. Laa Tahzan."

WAKE UP, UMMAH !










Saturday, 20 July 2013

remembrance


Therefore remember Me (by praying, glorifying), I will remember you, and be grateful to Me (for My countless Favors on you) and never be ungrateful to Me.” Quran (2:152)

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

We are showered with all the dunya things when that was not what we needed. We are showered with money and things that can be bought although we know it would not last forever. We are showered with love and care and for that we are grateful but we tend to forget the One and Only behind that temporary happiness. We are blessed with homes and cars but do we say Alhamdulillah enough ? We forgot that with the dunya things, we often forget akhirah. We forgot that money and wealth can turn us into snobby selfish monsters. We forgot that we were supposed to grasp for knowledge in our religion as much as we grasp for air when we are drowning. With the pleasures of dunya, we forgot that we actually need our religion, some may not want it but they need it. We all do. We forgot that there is a world after this world (akhirah) waiting for us and that world is forever. That world provides us with the Jannah we try to mold this world into but when are we going to realize that that's not the purpose of this world ? We forgot that syaitan is always around to take us astray but then again, why do we let them ? We forget these things so, when we sin, we point fingers. You point one finger at another person but you have three fingers pointing back at you. We blame other people but it is us, ourselves that forgot our religion. It is us that forget Allah SWT.




Monday, 15 July 2013

mum


Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

15 July 1977
The loveliest little girl was brought out to earth to be the kindest, most loving and caring mother (not to forget, beautiful) to no other lucky girl but me <3

Dear Marina bt Hashim,
I of course, as cliche as ever would like to start this with a gazillion thank yous that will never be enough after what you have gone through to raise me up. Mum, only Allah SWT can shower you with his blessings for all the things you did right while bringing me and my siblings up. Only Allah SWT understands the pain and sorrow you had to go through to put me in the blissful life I'm living now but I no less, praise Allah SWT and you in my prayers because I am grateful. Thank you for all the times you had to sit through my babbles about school, friends and such. Thank you for all the things you granted me although there were times I never deserved it even one bit. Thank you for always being my #1 bestfriend, my loyal boyfriend and of course forever amazing mum. Thank you for showing me from right to wrong, 1-10, a-z and everything else that I'd never manage to learn on my own. Nobody's perfect but you're the perfect mum for me. Even if I could trade you with all the good things in life, I would still choose you. I pray that Allah SWT grants you Jannahtul Firdaus for your never ending babbles, patience, kindness, love and the list goes on. Me, Amalin, Rayyan, Danish, Zarif and Zara are probably the luckiest kids in the world despite your scoldings hehe. You are the best and you always will be. Happy Birthday, mum. I love you mucho mucho <3 <3



I was a foolish little child
Crazy things I used to do
And all the pain I put you through
Mummy now I'm here for you
For all the times I made you cry
The days I told you lies
Now it's time for you to rise
For all the things you sacrificed


Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I'm all grown up now

It's a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day

And now I finally understand
Your famous line
About the day I'd face in time
‘Cause now I've got a child of mine
And even though I was so bad
I've learned so much from you
Now I'm trying to do it too
Love my kid the way you do

Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I'm all grown up now

It's a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day

You know you are the number one for me
You know you are the number one for me
You know you are the number one for me
Oh, oh, number one for me
There's no one in this world that can take your place
Oh, I'm sorry for ever taking you for granted, ooh
I will use every chance I get
To make you smile, whenever I'm around you
Now I will try to love you like you love me
Only God knows how much you mean to me

Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I'm all grown up now

It's a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day

The number one for me
I was a foolish little child
Crazy things I used to do
And all the pain I put you through
Mama now I'm here for you
For all the times I made you cry
The days I told you lies
Now it's time for you to rise
For all the things you sacrificed


Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I'm all grown up now

It's a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day

And now I finally understand
Your famous line
About the day I'd face in time
‘Cause now I've got a child of mine
And even though I was so bad
I've learned so much from you
Now I'm trying to do it too
Love my kid the way you do

Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I'm all grown up now

It's a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day

You know you are the number one for me
You know you are the number one for me
You know you are the number one for me
Oh, oh, number one for me
There's no one in this world that can take your place
Oh, I'm sorry for ever taking you for granted, ooh
I will use every chance I get
To make you smile, whenever I'm around you
Now I will try to love you like you love me
Only God knows how much you mean to me

Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I'm all grown up now

It's a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face every day

The number one for me ♡



Saturday, 13 July 2013

RAHSIA

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Just a little something I thought I should have on my blog since it's my favourite poem (one that's not in english that is :p )
 




Wednesday, 10 July 2013

بداية


Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

I never thought I'd start blogging again but alhamdulillah, here I am right now on a new blog writing (more like typing haha) the new chapters of my life.

Laa Tahzan Innallaha Ma'ana
I have always had this strong believe in that ayat. Whenever I'm sad or upset, it automatically comes up to my mind. I strongly believe that yes, Allah SWT is with us. Not just through hardships but through anything and everything. The thing that keeps me going when I have to go through obstacles is that fact that Allah SWT is always, always looking after me. Whether I'm in my room crying or I'm on top of the mountains shouting my lungs out or even when I'm stranded on an island in the middle of the sea. No matter where you are, who you're with, what you are doing, Allah SWT is always looking after you. The key to passing through obstacles is sabr and have faith that Allah SWT loves you and Allah SWT never tests you with a burden you can't carry.

& I hope all of you will be extra sabr during this Ramadhan and insyaAllah, it will be a barakah Ramadhan for all of us. So, here is to my new blog ! Bismillah.