Wednesday, 23 April 2014

Chanel.... wait, what ?!

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Soon April is going to end and then it will be May then June... My favourite month weehoooo. Guess why ? Because it will be my birthdaaay ! Today at school, a couple of classmates and I were talking about shopping, birthday presents, things you buy yourself and such. So, I started mentioning my Chanel bags, shoes, Balenciaga, Prada, Marc Jacobs and suddenly I stopped to what seemed like the most odd thing that had ever happened to me. Their jaws just dropped open and that went on for quite awhile I must say.. I guess it's because when I talk to Sabby or any of my girls about it we just start fangirling about the upcoming collections.

And so, I asked, "Is it not normal for you guys to have all that...?". They shook their head implying a no. I was like, "Uh-oh". I must sound pretty spoilt now. Then, it made me remember what Mum always tells me. "The only reason I spoil you guys with all the branded stuff my parents could never afford when I was younger is because I want you guys to study hard, be successful and one day, be able to afford all the finer things in life, just like I have given you". My friends kept on talking about how they have to earn it, work hard or even save money to get what they want. That was when my jaw dropped because I never had to do all that. I love you, Mummy and Daddy. Especially for all the handbags you guys have bought me teehee. Although you guys have spoilt me to the point where I don't think I'll ever be able to live without Chanel and all, it definitely taught me that I have to study hard to be able to afford all that by myself. I hope Allah SWT grants you guys the highest of heavens for being such amazing parents to the siblings and I. Sending my butt off to start studying for my upcoming mid term now.

On another note, I have been eyeing this lovely piece of art for while now....

Tuesday, 15 April 2014

first time for everything

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Crazy, huh ?! Never has it ever crossed my mind that there would ever be a write up on me, especially in the newspaper ! But, I was proven that nothing is impossible. Alhamdulillah, the one thing that has always been a big part of me has become something that is noticed by society. I don't know if you'll believe me when I say, it's not about the fame. Really. My first ever thought when I signed up for a blog was, "Someday, I'm going to be big enough to make a difference." MasyaAllah, all your endless supports, positive (and negative) comments, inspiring emails and so much more, made it possible to put me where I am today. Made me even happier to know that some of my blog readers aren't even Muslim ! So, to my loyal readers, thank you. May Allah SWT bless you in ways that I'm not able to. 

P/S ; Thank you, Arina Azlan for making it possible xx

Monday, 7 April 2014

little thing called love

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

I wrote a little something on Tumblr recently and when I posted it on Twitter, BAM ! Too many good response, masyaAllah. Soooo, I decided to put it up on the one place that would always have a special place in my heart hehe.

My boyfriend (soon to be husband, hopefully) and I are 9 years apart. When we met, I was 16 and he was 25. People are always asking me, "Why are you dating a guy so much older than you ?". Today, I finally thought about what my answer is. Older boys are much more matured and experienced. Yes, such a simple and cliché answer but it's true ! I have finally found a guy who knows that loving a girl isn't just about her looks or the size of her body. It's about falling in love with her personality and literally who she is. My boyfriend isn't able to touch me due to our religion. In Islam, we were taught to never touch opposite genders unless you are married or family. So, when he told me he wanted to marry me, I knew that it was out of pure love and not lust. Marriage, such a funny thing to say because I'm still very very young. Knowing a guy who has had experiences in his past relationships that lasted years but didn't work out, wanted to marry me, it really is something. He has gone out and seen the world and the type of girls out there. He could've chose a girl his age or two years younger to marry but he chose me. He chose the girl who he had to wait to finish school for, the schoolgirl who had built walls higher than ever that he had to break through before really getting to know. There were so many days that he had to deal with the immature 16-year-old I can be but he stayed throughout. Not once have I ever even seen a sign of giving up. Of course, he isn't the guy that romantically sweeps me off my feet all the time but hey, reality is, life isn't a movie. I've found a guy who truly understands what real commitment will be like. It will sometimes be sacrificing his late night outs with his boys because he needs to put the kids to bed, it will be about letting her win the argument although you are right or sometimes, it will simply be about missing a football match because she needs some sleep while you rock your newborn baby to bed. I finally met a guy who I know if I decided to spend the rest of my life with, despite the wrinkles that will appear, the body shape that will change, the teeth that will fall out, he would still love me for me. Commitment isn't a bed of roses, there will be sacrifices but you get to choose who you make those sacrifices for. So, make good choices. 

Tuesday, 1 April 2014

spending in the way of Allah SWT

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Happy April Fools ! Before anybody starts pointing that out, I'm sorry. I was just joking haha. Well, another month has already passed. Maaan, why is time so short nowadays ! Ok I take that back, no complaining. Thank you, Allah for being so generous and giving us 24 hours a day. I really appreciate it. 

Sorry I've been MIA, you guys. This sem break I had so much going on, I totally forgot to blog ! By so much going on, that includes studying ok ! Anyways, as most of you know, I have been bitten by the baking bug. Yup... I think I baked almost everyday last week. Since everyone is always finishing my muffins and cakes, I'm going to assume it's delicious. So, I was out at the supermarket earlier today. While waiting in line to pay for my things, an old couple in front of me were paying for their stuff. I accidentally overheard their conversation with the cashier telling her that RM36 was way too expensive for a couple of brooms and a pail. I was thinking, "Expensive...? I usually spent over RM100 for a blouse or two !". Then, it hit me.... 

To a lot of people, the amount of money spent even on the things they need are sometimes too much but to me, the amount of money spent on the things I want (not need) is never enough ! I started feeling so bad towards the flying money that had been spent on my favourite Chanel bags, Chanel flats, my Balenciaga.... :( So, I am now going to do more with the money than just spend them on my materialistic needs wants. Chaaarity ! I always feel like a weight of burden had been lifted off my shoulders everytime I do something good and my favourite has always been charity. Anybody wants to do some charity with me ? :D

"So fear Allah as much as you are able and listen and obey and spend [in the way of Allah]; it is better for yourselves. And whoever is protected from the stinginess of his soul - it is those who will be successful" (Quran 64:16)

Sunday, 16 March 2014

dim sum dinner

All you can eat dim sum for dinner. Think I've had enough dim sum for a year....

And no.... I don't lift weights bahahaha

Friday, 14 March 2014

friday thoughts

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Okay, lately I've been having my no mojo mood. Like, one minute I'd have tons of things in my mind to blog about but the moment I open my laptop, zero. After the whole Vivy thing, Asyraf kept telling me that nowadays, I blog more about events happening in my life rather than blogging about what I'm really good at (well, at least that's what he said) - preaching. Well, not the huge kind of preach more like reaching out to our younger generation in a less scary way. You know, like not telling them they are going to go to hell because they don't repent and such. And for that you guys, I'm sorry. 

Truth is, before this I used to get motivations on what to write based on the islamic related questions I get on but now, all I get are questions like, "what product are you using ?" "when are you going to get married ?" "why are you so lucky ?". As much as I understand your curiosities but the whole reason I made was to reach out to people who needed my help. Now, it's the total opposite :( 

Buuuuut, good news ! I've a little something to share today hehe. 

Recently, I've just had this talk with one of my schoolmates. He was telling me about a couple of tweetfamous people (people who are famous on Twitter) who are known to be extremely pious. He was mentioning about how this girl who wears niqab, whom tweeted a thing that was against what Islam is teaching. So, doing what anyone would've done, he replied with a stand saying he doesn't think it's right. This girl with an enormous amount of followers on Twitter replied by saying he was wrong and so on. Then, a bunch of her followers started like backing her up. See, this is where social networks gets really messed up. 

Just because you are known to be pious, doesn't mean you are right all the time. When someone explains to you what you just spread isn't exact according to what we are taught, you should take it as an advice and correct your mistake. In fact, even when I accidentally spread out a wrong message to my followers and when somebody corrects me, I immediately apologize and correct my mistake. Humans make mistakes. We are not known to be infallible like the Prophets before us. I get extremely pissed and annoyed with people who come out as pious and "educated" but cannot accept the fact that they can be wrong sometimes. Just because you cover your face or wear a kopiah around, you are still human and you don't run from making mistakes. 

I hope that I get my message out and nobody takes it the wrong way. 

"What comes to you of good is from Allah , but what comes to you of evil, [O man], is from yourself. And We have sent you, [O Muhammad], to the people as a messenger, and sufficient is Allah as Witness." (Quran 4:79)

Saturday, 8 March 2014

of unexpected events

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

I suppose that all of us (maybe) is pretty updated on the incident that involved one of our Malaysia Airlines flight, MH370. Although there wasn't any direct family members of mine in that particular flight, when I heard the news, my heart just fell. I can't even start to imagine what the family members of the passengers, cabin crews and pilots were feeling. 

This shows how little time you actually have with your loved ones. Can you imagine if someone so close to you was taken away by surprise ? That isn't even the worst part. Imagine if you don't even know what happened to him/her. Imagine the pain one has to endure to just keep going every single day. Oh, how much it hurts. Maybe it's really about time the ummah come together and repent. 

Ya Allah, if this is your way of showing how much we've sinned and forgotten you, forgive us. So many trials you've already tested us with and we're not even sure if we're able to get through it. Ya Allah, I hope you give the people that's facing more than others the strength to move on and never lose faith. I pray that they will see the best in the worst conditions. I hope that Allah forgives all of us for what we have sinned and forgotten to ask forgiveness for.